the barrens

well isn't this a snowy landscape
where you dwell, where you hide
beneath fallen evergreens and the sun
you're shying away from
the very thing you claim to need

i tried to show you
and you happily acquiesced
joyfully running away
merrily screaming murders

you make me want to say
that love is just the air

concerning futility

today i
cast a stare into my own eyes
and their gaze envelops me in flame
of contentment

years of shattering skull
into shards of failure - a broken face
on a wall of ambition
it dies, shattered
i die, in shards

the words you said to me
the way you couldn't turn

wind in hair, glancing offshore

wind in hair, glancing offshore

stand with one leg
a little twisted to the side
while within I hold thoughts
which for now I hide

hold the shoreline alone
lock my vision with watery gaze
on this ocean I find
dreams, which set this heart ablaze

liquids and masses;
I mediate between hope and fear
on this shore of reason
praying that courage is near

stand with one leg
in the fluid, one in the sand
preparing adrenaline leap
into waters of uncertain hand

in days gone by

NOTE: This is a compilational work. It incorporates elements of poetry pulled out of poems gone by and amalgamates them into one work. It is not "new", just newly organized as a unit.


oh! I'd let you kill me just to put a smile on your face
and I'd die happy seeing it there

she was unreachable,
transient - shifting through my cells
mindbait or catalyst
both

staring across an expanse of sand
desert scorching all I've planned
hold me now within your hand
oasis in a barren land

felt a sleep coming over
felt a sad presence
felt nothing but death
felt nothing but death

I'm welling up with saline rebirth,
this is my salvation from you

this dream has breathed its last
and now it flickers and fades
into a collage of invisible things
hiding beneath vulture's wings

cut the neck
let the wound
run

every day a million miracles of us
because it's always about us

I will wait forever, yes
so close always; to being convinced
this solitude eternal
and for now I'll love it
so much more than anyone else
so little restraint left
rejection is my sweet embrace
how could I ever want more

just please another minute
you are my horizon